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In today’s episode, we discuss the absolute circus that is medication access and a broken healthcare system. 

To set the scene: Jamie’s ADHD meds lapse and CVS hits her with basically the greatest hits of med denial. We’re all-too-familiar with the insane amount of barriers that keep us from getting the mental health help we need—from denials and appeals to drug tests and prior authorizations. Not to mention the very unethical ways pharmacists can deny us healthcare. 

All of these obstacles disproportionately harm uninsured and vulnerable people, too. Which is the real tragedy here.

If you’re a medical professional and would like to be a guest on our show to talk about this, please email us @ podcast@burnoutcollective.com

And if for some reason it’s not clear: We are not medical professionals and nothing we say should ever be considered medical advice.

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Rebecca

It's not a epidemic. It's us aging up into to the point where we can't fucking handle it and there's no amount of caffeine in the world that's gonna keep our shit together anymore.

I am Jamie. And I'm Rebecca. Welcome to the Burnout Collective.

Rebecca

Welcome back to the podcast. I just love waking up and being like, oh, we did a war. Now we're doing war, I guess. Oops. Oops. All war. Okay.

Jamie

Yep.

Rebecca

That's great. That's great. Oh, did we blow up an entire school full of children? Cool. Love that for us.

Jamie

The

Rebecca

And then go to work and act like everything is fine, and go to your meetings and make eye contact with your coworkers. And when you go, how's everyone's weekend? You all go

Jamie

I don't know. I would

Rebecca

and everyone.

Jamie

would just be cameras off and everybody would have to deal. I don't care. I don't care if I'm in charge. It's just, yeah.

Rebecca

Yeah. Yep, yep, yep, yep.

Jamie

So today, don't worry guys, we've wrapped on perfectionism. After two episodes, we're done calling everybody out, namely Rebecca and sometimes ourselves because I was like, I actually am recovering. And then I was like, wait, fuck, I am

Rebecca

Mm. Shit. Yeah.

Jamie

yeah, we wanted to do an episode on medication, particularly, I think particularly for mental health. but just all medications. Like we, I don't even think we're gonna be able to really go into the horrors of. The healthcare system in the

Rebecca

Oh no. Absolute. No, no, no,

Jamie

nobody has time for that. Luigi can, you know, um, but I've just had some medication nightmares come up recently with my A DHD meds and I wanted to talk about it. whew. I don't even know where to start. There's a lot of things

Rebecca

What, let's start with what precipitated you? messaging me going, I wanna talk about medications.

Jamie

know, right? all cap, all caps. so it started I think just like two to three weeks ago, maybe about three weeks ago. I was already out of my A DHD meds because I let it lapse. I always think it's like a sick joke that you can't get, and we've talked about this, but you can't get your A DHD meds delivered. I get it, controlled substance. I understand why, and it's like, I'll show you my id. You can take a picture of me holding my ID at the door. I have a DHD, not being able to have it delivered to me is a barrier. And that may seem silly to some people, but it is a massive barrier for me. because I procrastinate a lot. That's like part of it. And. I'll just procrastinate it and I'll put it off until I'm like outta medication for a few days and I'm like, oh, wow, I'm going nuts. I'm crazy. why do I feel so like unhinged? Why do I feel so dysregulated? And then usually Rebecca is like, are you, do you have all your meds? have you been taking your meds? And I'm like, no. So that's just like one, one barrier, that it is. So anyway, so I let it lapse a little bit. it'd only been a few days. I take two different, types of Adderall. I take extended release and then I also have an instant release to take, as needed. I was out of the extended release, so I was able, like in the mornings I was taking the teeny tiny like instant release just to help out. that's what I did today. so what happened was I was out of it and I went to go pick it up. they said it was gonna be ready, previously. I was laid off and I didn't have a job. I didn't have insurance. I finally did get insurance. I just recently got insurance, starting in February, Yeah, so I've had insurance for about a month, and honestly it's been a nightmare, since I've gotten insurance, like insurance has like only cost me money and problems, so I get there to pick up my meds and there was another med I was trying to pick up too, and they're like, oh, this isn't covered. And I felt like an idiot because I wasn't comprehending what the pharmacist was saying to me because I'm used to not having insurance. So she kept saying, this isn't covered this. And I was like, what do you mean covered? I need, this is, I need to get my medication like. It's not covered. I can't get it. And I was like, oh, you mean insurance? And she's like, yeah. And I was like, okay, sorry. Like I just got insurance. I've been paying out of pocket. And then she's like, Ooh, actually, that's another thing that we just put into place. you can no longer pay for A DHD medications or I think I, I don't know if she said A DHD or if she just said controlled substances, prescriptions, out of pocket, like with cash. And so I was like, wait, so you have to have insurance to be able to get like an Adderall prescription? And she said, yes, that's like a new policy. And I just sat there for a minute because I was like, what? yes, I have insurance now. So did that affect me any longer? No. I mean it kind of was, but No, but I was just

Rebecca

so this was, if this was, if, so you had a prescription from your doctor, but you didn't have insurance. They were, they, you were paying out of pocket'cause they filled it, but now it has to be run through insurance. What if they deny it?

Jamie

Yeah, that's what I'm saying. So they did deny it. and that, like that was the problem. no. I was thinking of I'm like, okay, I have insurance now, so hopefully I can still get my meds, but I'm just thinking about all the people who don't have insurance.

Rebecca

So your insurance company has to approve you getting this medication in order for you to access it, and you are not able to pay out of pocket for it.

Jamie

Yes. Because that's what I said. I was like, okay, if it's not covered, whatever. I was like, I need it. I was like, so let me just pay. And then she was like, Ooh. Yeah. And I was like, what? I've never heard of this before. I look, I looked it up'cause I was talking to you about it and we were trying to figure out if it was like a CVS thing or if it was like a California new California law. And I found Reddit posts from 4, 6, 4 to six years ago with people saying, it was mostly CVS. But I think some people said at Walgreens it sounds like it's just like a pharmacy per pharmacy basis. Like they just decide this, which also seems illegal to me because it's like I have a prescription. if you're trying to cut down on like illegal drug distribution, like I don't care. The person has a prescription. Like you give them their drugs.

Rebecca

Right.

Jamie

There. I mean, there's, there's so much more. But that was like, that was the start of it.

Rebecca

And so you would have to basically, so you need a pre-auth from your doctor

Jamie

Yeah.

Rebecca

in order to be approved.

Jamie

I just got insurance, this insurance company is Ooh, who are you? We don't know you. what do you mean you're taking Adderall? I know which I also don't understand because it's like, can they not see my history of having been on this for years? That like all your insurance companies can see all, like your information. when you're insured with them, and so she printed me out. She's I'll tell you like what it says about like why they're not covering it. And so she prints gives me this printout and it literally says like a reason why not covered. And it says patient's age. And I was like, what? And it said, I don't know. It was a bunch of Garbo. And it just said something about, anyone who's over the age of 18 needs a prior authorization from their doctor to get at least Adderall, at least I'm sure all A DHD meds, but Adderall at least. And that's another thing. Does that say if you're over 18, you can't possibly have a DHD? that's very bizarre to me.

Rebecca

I have a friend's brother who just died. He was a drug addict and when he graduated high school, he, you know, at 18 they cut him off from his Adderall prescription because, he wasn't in school anymore. It's like, well, why do you need it? And,

Jamie

So wait, who decided that? Like his doctors were like, Nope, sorry. oh my

Rebecca

I'm sure there's more to the story, but that's the gist of it from what I got. And that may be like an outside case, but it's,

Jamie

But that, that, that happens. And that's why I'm like, I'm actually so pissed. Even though I'm like, okay, I'm lucky enough to have insurance now, and I do have insurance. I don't get it through my employer. I have to pay for it out of pocket. but I'm able to, and I'm thinking about all the

Rebecca

that like, by the way, signing up for that? so if you're not getting it through your employer still, or at all, what was it like signing up for it? is it still insanely expensive? Are the options better than last time or how bad was it?

Jamie

I, except for just like short periods, like between a layoff or something, I've not really had to do covered California or whatever. So I don't have much experience except this time again, A DHD really I procrastinated. I like, I didn't have insurance for a year and I should have and I couldn't afford it for most of that time, first of all. but I guess by the time I could afford it, I basically got it.'cause I started my job Jan in January, the beginning of January of this year. so I signed up in January, but. I could have tried to make it work. It just, I was really just like getting my bills paid with a little bit of freelance work I was doing and didn't really have a lot of money for anything else. So I just did what I could. now I'm trying to remember what your question was.

Rebecca

Oh, just asking about like the state of the current Yeah, the current insurance, just based on our current administration. I'm just wondering like how hard they made it or how difficult it was to actually get it.

Jamie

It wasn't necessarily difficult to get it, but it is to me. I'm also the type of person, I don't know about you, but even when, my work offers health insurance, all of it is so complicated to me still. I've been doing this, I've been in the workforce, for so long, for decades, but still. It's just really hard for my brain to like completely understand everything. I guess I get the basics, but it's always just been like a difficult thing for me.

Rebecca

But the site worked and you weren't kicked off. I guess

Jamie

yes, the site worked.

Rebecca

late night.

Jamie

Yeah. There wasn't anything like big bugs or anything. It was just complicated. I actually reached out to my doctor'cause my doctor's awesome. which by the way, unfortunately it is owned by Amazon now, which like, I haven't decided what to do. But one medical is like a service you can sign up for where like you have access, you just you can text your doctor. it's very like app based. but you also can go in, there's an office and everything. And I signed up for one medical, like four years ago, maybe four or five, and. It could, maybe I'm lucky and maybe just the doctors at my one medical, are just great. But I found two amazing doctors and I've never felt good about a doctor'cause I have lots of trauma surrounding like medical stuff and health. So that's another thing I procrastinate was going to the doctor, but I would, I wouldn't procrastinate going to the doctor and I was like keeping up with my health ever since I signed up for one medical and no, this is not a fucking advertisement. but yeah, it just makes it easier. So I just opened the app and texted my doctor and I was like, Hey, this is what's going on. I've never really had to do this before, blah, blah, blah. And I'm glad I said something because there were very specific things, I think with one medical that like they couldn't see me if I was on like. Medicaid or Medicare. and so like he had, like I, I had picked some things out and he was like, no, that's'cause it was called something else, but it was actually Medicare and I didn't know. And he was like, no, you can't get that. Or like, I can't see you. we will not be able to see you if you get that. because

Rebecca

Really?

Jamie

it is supposed to be a more cost effective, I think based on your income. And so because of that they don't

Rebecca

only see patient with like, with like not private, I guess. Is it private insurance?

Jamie

Oh, like PPO, No, that's not it. It's like I could still, so like I could still see them if I was on HMO. But I would still pay out of pocket because that they're not with, they're only with, yeah, like p, PO, but I think it would still go to my deductible and everything else. I like how I'm like, health insurance really confuses me and Rebecca's like asking me all these questions and health insurance, and I'm like, I'm trying. no. I'm just laughing.

Rebecca

the hoops that you have to jump

Jamie

Oh, yeah,

Rebecca

I also think as much as I appre, I mean the medic, the medication delivery thing, it's very funny, because like even over COVID we couldn't get it.

Jamie

yeah. Yeah.

Rebecca

The other thing about having to jump through hoops is I had to take m in every three months to see her doctor in order to get her medication refilled.

Jamie

I have to do that.

Rebecca

And before they did a drug test on her, like before she switched, they used to do drug tests on her in order to make sure that it was showing up in her urine and that I wasn't getting her a prescription

Jamie

Oh

Rebecca

I could have access to.

Jamie

Is that why?

Rebecca

Yeah. And'cause I asked, and so they did it one time and it came up negative. I think the nurse was new and it came up negative and I freaked the fuck out I called her doctor, I sent a message. I was like, you can count them. I will come in for a drug test. And she's like, no, the one she's on. I was like, I don't know why she gave it to her. That's not, they won't show up in her teeth. That's not like, that's not, but I panicked because I'm like,

Jamie

now, they're gonna think, yeah,

Rebecca

Depending on what it is, yeah. They do urine tests on the kids to make sure that it's in their systems.

Jamie

so fucked. But then that also makes me sad because then that means that there are people who take advantage of their kids.

Rebecca

Yep. Oh yeah. It's all kinds of fucked up. I, that broke my heart.

Jamie

however, I wonder if it's not, oh, like maybe it's just I don't know. It's, yeah, it's a mess. there's too many hoops. and that's why I said like we wanted to talk about specifically mental health medication. I know other medications are very important, and we need those as well, but it's

Rebecca

favorite is when they give me, so I get a letter from our,'cause we have an insurer for general insurance, and then we have a prescription insurance, right? And we'll get a letter being like, If you do not get 90 days in a row of medication, you will be paying more. And I find it very funny that my insurance company wants me to have 90 pills worth of antidepressants. I'm like, you just doing the job for me? I guess. So just

Jamie

Yeah. they do that too with like my sleeping pills and then,

Rebecca

yeah, making it real easy.

Jamie

yeah, but then with my anxiety meds, there've, but there's been this like fluctuation of Yeah, ninety's fine. And then it's oh no, we can't do 90, it's only 30, but it's it's gaba fucking pentin you guys. it's not a big deal. so I had to fight too just recently to get that back because with that I take two every day and as needed. So my doctor had to like basically do a prescription that said three a day to just make sure I'm getting enough for it. It's,

Rebecca

The other thing I've noticed is when there's an insurance issue, like on the app, on the pharmacy app, it'll say reviewing insurance an issue. And then I went back the next day to check it and it was just gone. Just gone. didn't contact me, didn't let me know, just gone. So I had to call and be like, hello, where is

Jamie

yeah. That's the thing. There's so much follow up. I've never had to do so much follow up in my life on medications until I was on a DHD meds.

Rebecca

If we don't go through insurance, because of course they don't, of course they don't approve the medication that she's on, then you have to go through a coupon. But every time they run it through insurance, even though I've called multiple times and like, Hey, please don't run it through insurance. Can you put a note on my file? And every time they run it through insurance, it doesn't do it. And then they close it out or whatever they do where it's just gone. And I'm like, please. Just every single time. Every time.

Jamie

When I lost my job and my insurance, I had to. Call and do that same thing, except I don't have insurance, I'm paying out of pocket. Please put this note on my account. Because every time my scripts would come in for refills, it would be like, oh, can't process. it would just say oh, we can't give it to you. And'cause they like, and every time I called they were like, what did you change insurance? And I'm like, no, I do not have insurance. I am paying out of pocket right now. Oh, okay. that's why it said you couldn't get it. And I'm like, just,

Rebecca

Did you find they treated you differently without insurance? did you get different service or worse service? I guess gen. Genuinely. Just curious.

Jamie

I don't know. I don't think so. That's never something that like crossed my mind. but it was really annoying to, for my meds. All the fucking time to say oh, can't fill contact pharmacy. And so like on top of just the regular back and forth I would have to do with the pharmacy on a DHD meds, I would also have to call them. Oh, and now my C-V-S-C-V-S, I just need to get away from CVS. I did transfer all of my prescriptions somewhere else. cost plus drugs, by the way, also not an advertisement, but especially if you don't have insurance, it takes insurance. And doesn't those

Rebecca

is that the shark tank guy?

Jamie

What's his name? Mark Cuban. but he cuts out the middleman and everything's, my sibling told me about it and I was like, I wish I knew about this entire year that I didn't have insurance because I would've been paying way less for my meds.

Rebecca

The fact that you have to go through a millionaire

Jamie

yeah.

Rebecca

I take a special medication. It is cheaper for me to get it from an Indian pharmacy or a Canadian pharmacy, so they have to send my prescription to Canada, and then I have to wait for Canada to ship it. And then when COVID was happening and there were tons of shipping delays, I couldn't get it and it's for my heart and I kind of need it. So like

Jamie

Oh

Rebecca

I'm just going weeks without having it.

Jamie

That's what I'm saying. It's just

Rebecca

But if it was in the US it would be thousands of dollars.

Jamie

Yeah.

Rebecca

So

Jamie

It's ridiculous.

Rebecca

it's insane.

Jamie

I guess the one bright side that I've just now come across of having insurance again is my medications like are cheaper. I'm sure some of them aren't, but'cause I still have to have, so I still have to do the Adderall'cause cost plus drugs is delivery. So it's all shipped. so they don't

Rebecca

ship Adderall?

Jamie

no, they don't. So they don't, they can't ship that. so I still have to keep that with CVS. But yeah, TBDI really need to change the pharmacy and Gabapentin and they don't have Gabapentin for some reason,

Rebecca

is it a schedule two s like adderall's, like a controlled, it's like a schedule two substance. Right?

Jamie

yeah, yeah. I understand.

Rebecca

when they give, gave housewives meth in the sixties.

Jamie

Yeah. Can I

Rebecca

They got so much done.

Jamie

come in for some brains apps and my girdle, and I'm just kidding.

Rebecca

Some lady meth just coming in your little

Jamie

How do we start our own pharmacy, Rebecca called Lady Meth,

Rebecca

Listen,

Jamie

where we legally deliver meth to ladies

Rebecca

there's a whole history lesson in here on, on why it's considered schedule, whatever, that we don't have the time or energy to go into. And so I get it, but also it putting up barriers to get people in mitigation that makes it easier to exist and live and do the things that they have to do to function.

Jamie

Yeah, it's not okay.

Rebecca

I don't quite,

Jamie

and I know I am, I'm very lucky. I'm very lucky that I have insurance now and I can pay for insurance. but I'm just thinking about all of these people who can't because insurance is ridiculous.

Rebecca

So in 2024 it was 27.2 million. Americans did not have health insurance.

Jamie

yeah, insane. And then we're like, oh, all these crazy homeless people. Ugh, they're crazy. Stay away from that. Do you know why? Do you know why we have crazy homeless people? Because they're fucking unmedicated. They can't afford their medication. They can't get their medication, one or the other, and

Rebecca

then all the ways to get it so the VA or Medicare or Medicaid to like the barriers to navigating through those systems, which again, I think are purposefully confusing to weed out. I don't know anyone, having to go through all that to stick with it in order to get seen it's gotta be exhausting for them. It has to be exhausting. I know it's exhausting. It's,

Jamie

so I had to just look this up because it's been a while, but I actually recently watched this movie with Alyssa, ever after the Drew Barrymore Cinderella movie from like the nineties.

Rebecca

she did not have insurance.

Jamie

She was taught, this just reminded me of this quote by Thomas Moore from the book Utopia, for if you suffer your people to be ill educated and their manners to be corrupted from their infancy and then punish them for those crimes to which their first education disposed them. What else is to be concluded from this, but that you first make thieves and then punish them, like that's

Rebecca

Yes. That's capitalism. 100%. That's exactly what it is So you were saying you don't understand insurance or can't navigate it? I unfortunately can't because the amount of appeals and denials and all the shit that I've had to go through, in order to get actual adequate care and. A, to be taken seriously, B2B to B, seen by the right people or getting to see the right people. And then c to get on medications that actually help. But my insurance is like, what the fuck are you doing? Why do you have to do this? And so then you have to appeal. And that's just for me. Then there's m having to go through all that with her on why are you putting this on her medication? Like she has to be on this medication for this amount of time in order for us to approve this, and you have to, and just, yes, we did that already. So they say, it's it's almost like they just say no automatically. And then if you appeal, then they'll give the second look. And actually almost every time that's happened, every time I've appealed, it's been fine. But having to go through that process, it's like a test, like, how badly do you really want this?

Jamie

Yeah, that's

Rebecca

Pretty pretty fucking bad actually. As it turns out, pretty fucking bad.

Jamie

It's like actually to live and to live, I need these medications like so that I can work my job and make money to keep a roof over my head and my kids' head like, I need these. Yeah.

Rebecca

It is also very interesting what they make, what they make difficult to access and not difficult to access. I don't know. I'm just trying to think. There was like, like one of my insurances covered fertility treatments. one of my other insurances didn't cover fertility treatments, but would cover weight loss surgery. Like who may, who makes the rules? Why, who decides this? Whose job is it and like why not both. Why not both? You could have both.

Jamie

Also it's like, Hey, your doctor's saying you, I don't know, like you need to have something removed. And you need to have surgery and have this removed, and your doctor's like you need this. And then your insurance is

Rebecca

Breast reduction surgery was covered, but only because I could prove that I had sores on my sides from my bra digging in. So you have to be bleeding and injured

Jamie

have to prove yourself even though you're paying these people so much money, like

Rebecca

And even though you say, Hey, my fucking back hurts all the time. No, that's not enough. You have to have open sores so you basically have to be in a state of shit assery in order to get any fucking care.

Jamie

And even then it's difficult.

Rebecca

our hospital bill for,'cause m was a preemie, was over a hundred thousand dollars.

Jamie

oh my God,

Rebecca

That was fun. They covered it finally. But like I definitely shit my pants when I saw that.

Jamie

how much did they cover? All of it?

Rebecca

All of it.

Jamie

Oh, thank God.

Rebecca

No, that's not true. There was, we had to pay some, but it was not even close to. That much like It was I think just like the, yeah. But

Jamie

2000, 4,000.

Rebecca

love those letters that you get. They're like, this is not a bill. This is just to let you know how much we paid for you. Fuck off. That's your job. That's why I pay you.

Jamie

Yeah. I'm still.

Rebecca

see, I feel like there's a bigger, I feel like there's a bigger show here with the history of insurance and like why they make it so difficult and who they make it difficult for. And then I think it just comes down to fancy eugenics where like with cryptocurrency, I was telling you the other day, like cryptocurrency, we make it as inaccessible to as many people as possible. only the few can have it. And that's how I feel about insurance coverage too. But on the flip side, my friend Ash in Canada, they have Canadian insurance. But the waiting list to get in to see an actual fucking doctor are months, if not years long. And there's like only one, which is insane. I do agree universal healthcare, but you have to do it in a way where people can actually fucking access it. Because if you have it and you still can't get it, what's the fucking point? But I was like, oh, did you go to the, your doctor? And they were like, no, I can't get into. I was like, what do you mean? They're like, no, the waiting list is literally months long. I'm like, so if you're suicidal or if you are whatever, what are you supposed to do?

Jamie

Call the

Rebecca

What are you supposed to do?

Jamie

you call 9 1 1. That's what they tell you to do.

Rebecca

You have to wait. You have to, so okay, I guess I'll make it through seven months to see you, and if I'm not dead, then I'll keep my appointment. what are you supposed to do?

Jamie

That would make me more suicidal, honestly.

Rebecca

How I just, again, I don't understand how, it's not eugenics in disguise. I really don't.

Jamie

And I also think it like, depends on, the whim of all of these different people's slash company, all these different people in companies. So like my pharmacy, like my specific CVS being like, no, you can't pay out of pocket. And first of all, that's like a big change. I had been paying out of pocket for a year. Why did no one like send me a message to let me know this was happening? She's oh, this just went into effect last week. And I'm like, okay, why did no one tell

Rebecca

How bad do you really want it?

Jamie

I had, I had a horrible time getting my A DHD diagnosis and getting on meds for that. I went through three different psychiatrists, two of which actually made my mental health so much worse. I reported one of them and the psychiatric group to the Better Business Bureau. I was hung up on, I was ignored. I had a doctor after having an appointment with my doctor and her asking me what I was allergic to Medwise, I told her. Gabapentin, not gabapentin, sorry. Wellbutrin, and refused to actually prescribe me an A DHD Med and instead pro prescribed me. First of all, Wellbutrin, right after the appointment that I said I was severely allergic, caused me to not be able to breathe and have hives all over my body. what happened to, first of all, do no fucking harm bitch? are you kidding? and then prescribed, I don't even remember what it was, but it was like some med that wasn't really an A DHD med, but she was like, this might help. And I took it for like almost two months and it did nothing. And I was like, this isn't doing anything for me. And she was like, resistant.'cause a lot of psychiatrists are, because there's that stigma of, oh, doesn't everybody have a DHD? And everybody's getting diagnosed and, or people are just doing it to get Adderall, like to get drugs.

Rebecca

Or we're all reaching our late thirties, mid forties, which in women is when A DHD symptoms become a lot worse and your ability to handle it goes way down the fucking toilet.

Jamie

Mm-hmm.

Rebecca

And we're all reaching this age together at around the same time.

Jamie

Yep.

Rebecca

It's not a epidemic. It's us aging up into to the point where we can't fucking handle it anymore and there's no amount of caffeine in the world that's gonna keep our shit together anymore.

Jamie

Yeah. We've had we've had our own, we've created our own coping mechanisms and. Things to do to like work around our A DHD. And it's insane. It's insane when I like, when I first got on meds, it blew my mind. And it's the same with antidepressants. Like after taking a DHD meds and antidepressants, I was like, whoa, why did I wait so long? this is making everything so much better. and I think I waited so long because of the stigma around mental health meds. oh, just do x instead. Like you just need more discipline. Just make lists. Just make more lists. couldn't take, I had the hardest time. I still do taking tests growing up. I was lucky enough that I had a couple teachers, let me take'em like after school, or out in the hallway, where it was like usually quiet, while everyone else was like in the room because I couldn't focus and I just put so much pressure on myself that I would literally fail tests and my mom would be like, I studied this because it was like grade school. Like my mom would be like, I studied this with you. I know you know this. How did you get a D on this? And

Rebecca

Well, and unfortunately A DHD and girls, they knew nothing about back then either. That's the sad part. Like they, because they weren't presenting as the boys do, so it was just like, oh, you have failed, or, oh, you didn't try your best. Instead of, Hey, you really struggling.

Jamie

Or you're not hyperactive. I think that was like the big thing.'cause that's what I always saw is the only kids I knew with A DHD or were on meds were boys that were very hyperactive.

Rebecca

Except think of all the ways you were, you're chewing your fingernails, you're peeling the cuticles off, like all these little ways to let that energy out.

Jamie

Mm-hmm.

Rebecca

But again, I. Because you're a girl. Yeah. No. It's,

Jamie

it's like when you have like an invisible, disability, you can't have a DHD like what you've, I like, I still have people that I think that about me. I think that. people that think they know me well are like, I don't see how you have a DHD.

Rebecca

And to that, I say, listen, if I'm going to scam a doctor to get fucking drugs, it's not gonna be for Adderall. Okay. I'm gonna scam a doctor. It's to get my hands on some of those old school quaaludes. If they, even if they have any around, give me like,

Jamie

got any old school Quaaludes lying around? Hey,

Rebecca

Please. Like, I'm gonna scam you outta some good shit. Not on a fucking Adderall.

Jamie

qua Lulu, anybody?

Rebecca

You know what I mean though? It's like that is not worth my time. Adderall's not worth my time to scam you. I'm coming to you'cause I actually do need

Jamie

That's like when we had PreOn. I remember, I like, I loved that she said this. She said. It was when like, people are like, oh, it was just an A, DHD, everybody has a DHD. and even some doctors are thinking that and she's I just lost my train of thought.

Rebecca

Case in fucking point.

Jamie

God damnit. oh, she said, chances are,'cause like we, we were saying that sometimes it's I think I have a DH adhd. Do I have a adhd? And she's if you're like, I might be autistic or I might have a DHD, people who don't have those things, like normally would not think that, that's not the norm,

Rebecca

Yeah. Yeah. Let me put myself through this entire assessment of trying to figure out if I'm autistic, just for funsies.'cause I'm bored.

Jamie

Yeah.

Rebecca

That's, I just, it's, I forget like when they would check my ID for things, I'm like, if I'm gonna steal someone's identity, it's not gonna be for this stupid shit. I'm gonna go for the fun shit. come on. I feel the same way about medications, and that's the other thing. When you do go to ask for the medications that you know you need that work, you feel like you're being sneaky or getting away with something. A lot of times, I don't know why me, that's just me, but I always feel like I'm, and I'm like, no, I really do genuinely need. Because I'm so afraid they're gonna think I'm trying to scam them outta something.

Jamie

Why would you be taking

Rebecca

I know,

Jamie

a medication that you don't need?

Rebecca

right? I do miss the days of Obama where you got birth control for$0. And every time I went to pick up my birth control, I would go, thanks Obama. And I'd be very happy. And I really miss those days.

Jamie

I love my IUD

Rebecca

And that's a whole thing we could talk about is certain pharmacists who wouldn't give you your birth control or like

Jamie

Or the morning after pill. Yeah. Oh my God.

Rebecca

yeah. That's a whole other thing too.

Jamie

It's funny because I'll see that in movies I think a lot where or TV shows or someone's trying to, a woman's trying to get the morning after pill and they're giving her a hard time or shaming her or whatever. And I think people think that's just oh that's just something in like movie. It's not like

Rebecca

No,

Jamie

that still happens.

Rebecca

And again, I'm not taking it for fun. I don't wanna be here either. That's what kills me about, it's I don't wanna do this. It's just been years of having to justify myself to doctors, not only on my behalf, but on my kids' behalf and having to fight for, and again, I will say this as a white lady, I feel like I'm pretty fairly lucky in that we've had insurance all this time. So I know there are people out there who. Have it much worse and you've had like cancer treatment denied or that type of thing. So I am, I'm caveating that with like, might look like a drop in the bucket, but if it's that frustrating for my drop in the bucket, how fucking insane is it for somebody who actually needs it?

Jamie

Yeah, exactly. That's what I'm trying to say. It's like I am lucky enough to have insurance now, but it's

Rebecca

I'm sorry, I did not mean to like repeat your stuff at you like a man in a different way,

Jamie

oh.

Rebecca

the same. I didn't mean to do that.

Jamie

No, you didn't do that.

Rebecca

Oh, okay. Sorry.

Jamie

no, I was just agreeing with you. I was like, yeah, I think it's just what about the people who depend on this CVS that I go to or their A DHD meds that don't have insurance now? Like they're just fucked

Rebecca

And you know what? If you have a moral whatever against, don't be a fucking pharmacist. Don't be one. Go be something else. Don't be my fuck. Don't be a fucking pharmacist. Go find a different job. Why would you get that job if you're gonna have a moral

Jamie

and they talk, they always talk to me like I'm stupid.

Rebecca

Oh God, yes.

Jamie

or just, oh, that's what I was gonna say. Another thing I was gonna say. So first of all, the CVS app is like shit. And like hardly ever they did a whole revamp of it. It still doesn't completely work.

Rebecca

It's still shit.

Jamie

yeah. And and when I call, they would even sometimes say like, well, you can just do this on the app. And I'm like, no, I can't do it. On the app, it says I can't get my prescription. Contact your pharmacist. trust me, if I could not be calling you now and take care of this, I would be,

Rebecca

That's the other thing is like, I don't wanna talk to you. I'm not.

Jamie

Yeah. I don't use my phone to call people.

Rebecca

I'm not having a good time. You are not having a good time. No one's having a good time.

Jamie

But my, so my pharmacy just started. Now when I call and I say speak to a pharmacist, I don't get to speak to a pharmacist. It sends you to a voicemail. you have to say, yep.

Rebecca

They send you to voice, they have voicemail.

Jamie

they send you to a voicemail. You have to say what the issue is and then they'll call you back. Sometimes I've been not called back a ton. They just didn't call me back. I just, I need to get out

Rebecca

And the answer is going down in person, so you need to go down in person.

Jamie

yeah. Oh God. Waiting in line at the CVS pharmacy at rush hour in Los Angeles is like

Rebecca

Gross.

Jamie

the saddest, we're all just trying to get in there and get out, man. But there's always problems. And then there's the people who are like, ugh, like thinking like people are taking long and it's. I'm not taking long. It is these incompetent pharmacists.

Rebecca

I think this episode is called Please Give us Our Legal Meth, because when I had COVID last year, I was like, I need Sudafed and I need like the meth Sudafed because I just, I couldn't breathe and I was miserable. So I go to Walgreens through the drive-through and I was like, hi, I like the meth Sudafed. And she said, I can't sell it to you through the drive-through, even though I could give her my id. I can't sell it to you through the drive-thru. And I was like, why not? She goes, that's just our rules. Or I don't know whose rules or laws, whatever. And I was like, so you want me just so we're clear, I have COVID and I'm telling you I have COVID and just so we're clear, you want me to come into the store? She goes, well, not really. I was like, I want my legal method. And she's like, well, then you have to come into the store. Okie dokie. That's on you. So like I'm putting, and also all the old fuckers who hang out at the pharmacy, you know, they're all there. I'm putting them at risk by going into the store to get my legal fucking meth, even though I politely went into the drive-thru with my mask on in my car to minimize contact.

Jamie

is another one of those stupid fucking rules that it's like, because this is how we've always done it, and it's like, Hey, shit has changed. have you heard of COVID? do you understand what has happened and how many people have, what is happening and how many people died? Like you need to change your shit. Also, what a luxury to have a drive through at your pharmacy. What a luxury. I always thought that,

Rebecca

I, it's'cause it's Walgreens. You need to go, you need to stop

Jamie

I thought you had CV.

Rebecca

to Walgreens. No, CVS is dog shit.

Jamie

I always thought you had CVS.

Rebecca

I have Walgreens and Costco. Costco does not have a drive through, but Costco also has hot dogs. So I will get at my car for Costco, go.

Jamie

We'll get out of her car for a hot dog. We'll get out of her car for a hot dog.

Rebecca

I take Rob with me so we can go get a fun little treat and get my medications. but oh, here's the other thing. When I am in line, don't make me, they make you tell you your name and date fine, whatever. But then they like say your medication out loud. Really fucking loud. Could you

Jamie

Oh wow.

Rebecca

that

Jamie

Yeah.

Rebecca

could you not, please? No, I think mine's a, I think mine is mean. I think the Costco lady is mean, but she gives it to me though, so I can't complain

Jamie

I did hear that

Rebecca

she does,

Jamie

pretty good for a pharmacy though, especially

Rebecca

yes, they're great. But Helen does yell whatever I'm taking out across the fucking store. So it's the one downside. But yeah. no, Costco is great.

Jamie

Yeah.

Rebecca

don't know. I don't know. I think it's just a shit show. And again, the other caveat is I know we don't have enough pharmacists. I know we don't have enough like healthcare workers. I know that. I know. I know. Everyone is. I know. I know. Which is why, to your point, things have changed. We're not there for fun. We just need our shit. We're willing to make it easy if you're willing to make it easy. But I think that's like a state and federal law thing.

Jamie

Yeah.

Rebecca

Just give us our legal meth, please.

Jamie

I guess that's something that I didn't look up because it doesn't seem legal that they can say you can't pay out of pocket for this. Sorry.

Rebecca

Can you look that, because my other thing is like when you use a pharmacy, are you basically saying yes, I agree to your rules and your terms. I don't know if terms of service, but I don't even know if pharmacies have terms of service. They don't'cause that sounds stupid.

Jamie

Yeah. I don't know. This is like the longest fucking, it is not inherently illegal for a pharmacy to refuse to dispense medication if someone can't pay for it with or without insurance. Oh, that's just for nonpayment though.

Rebecca

Oh, it's state by state.'cause I'm looking at Washington.

Jamie

I just spoke to the pharmacist at, this is Reddit. I just spoke to the pharmacist at my local Walgreens and was told that it was his personal policy that he would not dispense any controlled substances if the customer was paying out of pocket. He noted that he wouldn't fill controlled substances. Of this high amount as well. Is this legal?

Rebecca

Who made you God of the fucking pharmacy? Again? We're not here for a good time.

Jamie

Oh my God. I think like when I go in, I actually think I have to go in today after this. So I think when I go in, I'm gonna like ask about it.

Rebecca

You should,

Jamie

they like withhold my meds longer because I'm asking questions.

Rebecca

she asked questions. Again, I realize I have very little to actively, like on the whole, and very lucky. I guess these are just blips, but when you're trying to get care for like somebody else, or your kid or it's just, just give us our legal meth, please. we just want it.

Jamie

Most states now have investigative branches, which try to bust doctors who over-prescribe listed narcotics. Some pharmacies will not even fill certain medications, regardless of who wrote them. I walk into a pharmacy with a legal prescription from a doctor, hand it to the pharmacist. He asks if I have insurance, I say, no, I'll pay cash. It doesn't matter what insurance coverage I have, unless I seek reimbursement. what I don't know if this is accurate. In Arizona, Georgia, Arkansas, Missouri, South Dakota, and Idaho, a pharmacist can ref, pharmacists can refuse to provide certain meds on moral or religious grounds.

Rebecca

Yes. That is for Arizona at least. Yes, that is true. that's like where the birth control thing comes in.

Jamie

And also I assume like probably some transgender people,

Rebecca

And are you being a pharmacist so you can control who gets it and who doesn't? Like, why are you doing that? If you know as if you know and are going to pharmacy school, that you're gonna have to dispense medication that you don't fucking agree with, why are you becoming a pharmacist?

Jamie

this is ridiculous. People are like, oh, the pharmacy slash pharmacist wants to make sure they get paid, blah, blah. And it's what if I'm like, Hey, I'll pay out of pocket and I pay them, I'm paying them.

Rebecca

It's not a First Amendment thing. Whatever it is, you work for a company, you as a person should not get to decide

Jamie

No,

Rebecca

that I don't get my fucking medication because you have a religious stance against it. Fuck off into the sun my friend.

Jamie

I don't know, man. I, yeah, I can't find any like straight answers on this, which is crazy.

Rebecca

So we're gonna update you in part two of Give me My legal Meth and we will let you know what the pharmacist says

Jamie

Oh, it's just, yeah. I think that's why I think, like I did look this up, but I really couldn't find anything and so I was like, I'm giving

Rebecca

it's not a thing and it's fucking stupid.

Jamie

It is fucking stupid.

Rebecca

Did you ask to speak to the manager?

Jamie

I should have

Rebecca

Well, we have to go'cause Jamie has to go to CV. S.

Jamie

fucking Christ.

Rebecca

Because this is the fucking Burnout podcast, having or not having access to your medications or easy access to your medications that make it possible for you to exist in this fucking world, just compounds and contributes to the nightmare that is today.

Jamie

a nightmare that is being alive.

Rebecca

Yes. And again, if I was gonna do drugs, it wouldn't be that, it would be something fun. I think that's the takeaway from all this is I'm willing to do drugs, but only fun ones

Jamie

It makes me so mad

Rebecca

it. I hope you go in there pissy. I cannot wait to hear. Please let me know. Anyway, find us on social media.

Jamie

I start reciting utopia to them.

Rebecca

Yeah, find us on social media. Find us wherever you get your podcasts.

Jamie

take your meds. that's the least we can do for you today. It is just a reminder.

Rebecca

just realized this was another episode of things we don't like.

Jamie

How dare anyone refuse a Taurus anything.

Rebecca

Oh, it was the sneaky things we don't like, but it was the things we don't like.

Jamie

See, but the thing is you keep calling it out,

Rebecca

Our ability to work in bitching and moaning through a educational and research filled lens delights me.

Jamie

Don't give the listeners any like fodder, like

Rebecca

Oh, fuck. get the fuck outta here. Go pick up your meds.

Jamie

take your meds. Sorry. If you have to pick'em

Rebecca

Take your meds.

Jamie

out cost plus drugs.com guys. Not an ad. Just check it out. Just see.

Rebecca

Try to scam a doctor out of some fun drugs. See what happens. Who knows

Jamie

Also, if you are a doctor or a medical professional, and you know the answers to some of these questions, like, is this legal? Please email us, podcast@burnoutcollective.com. let us know. And if you also feel passionate about this, whether or not you are in a medical profession, reach out to us. We're still looking for guests for season two.

Rebecca

Yeah. Come talk to us about drugs, please.

Jamie

come talk to us.

Rebecca

Okay. Bye.

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